What I Want

I got what I wanted and,

Now that I have it,

I realize,

It wasn’t what I wanted.

I built my dream and,

Now that I’ve built it.

I realize,

It wasn’t my dream.

I achieved financial freedom and,

Now that I’m free,

I realize,

Nothing changed.

I collected power and influence and,

Now that I hold that,

I realize,

I am more alone.

I rose to the top,

Now that I’m there,

I realize,

It’s nicer near the bottom.

I fought relentlessly,

Now that I’ve won,

I realize,

It was the wrong fight.

I won every award,

Now that I have them,

I realize,

I don’t care.

I read many books,

Now that I’m smarter,

I realize,

I know nothing.

I thought about what this means,

And it still changed nothing.

That pisses me off.